When is when?

So I’ve been reading some Bob Marley and Marilyn Monroe quotes (see below) and I thought about something…

Now the premise of these thoughts is that I just got out of a very short lived relationship (almost two months). But I feel deep down that she has a bigger purpose in my life. I’ve only known her since the late part of this past October but for some reason and in a short period of time she changed my thoughts (in a BIG way) about life. We both agreed upon the break up because I was an experiment… I know right experiment? Why? How? Well according to her she usually does not get into a relationship with a someone until after she falls in love with them??? Which means she dates until she love happens. It does not make much sense to me but that is what she feels comfortable with so I accept our break up.

I explained to her that dating to me means that I actually date, multiple people if I like or not. I explained that now she may not be the person I spend most of my time with when I am off of work. She explained to me that I shouldn’t think of us “dating” in that way and that she still has strong feelings for me but that they were just not love feelings yet. I understood what she was saying and I find her candor very attractive. Thus far nothing has changed in our interactions with each other. We still spend all our free time together. I appreciate her for telling me as soon as she did because I wouldn’t want to be strung along.

As I sit here in thought, I wonder what I can do to ensure that I am open and honest at all times and my time is not wasted. I always attempt at giving people my best, putting my best foot forward in life, and I will continue to do so. As I said before there is a strong feeling I have that she has a bigger purpose in my life. I don’t want to exactly waste my time in something that could potentially never amount to something, but at the same time I want to soak myself in her as much as I can as I hope for the best.

My question to myself is: When do you know that all your hard work fighting for a relationship with someone is no longer worth it? Does that make me unworthy of that person? Or am I just giving up on the relationship or the potential for a relationship? When is enough, enough?

bobmarley

marilyn-monroe-selfish-quote

One thought on “When is when?

  1. I’m a firm believer in reason, season and lifetime when it comes to people’s role in our lives. I think it’s great you’re still looking forward to discovering what her role will be, despite it not being what you may have originally intended.

    In another note, her approach to dating is definitely a different perspective on things, so her honesty is admirable.

    Good luck!

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